Me, about an hour ago: "God, I can't stay awake, despite how interesting the Alien Tort Statute and Act of State Doctrine are, maybe I'll put some music on. Hmmmmm...well, I've listened to the Buffett box set 762 times in the last four days, time for something new. What to pick, what to pick? OHHHH, I haven't listed to THIS CD in a LONG time! Billboard Hits of 1972."
First Song.
Alone Again Naturally
Gilbert O'Sullivan
In a little while from now, If I'm not feeling any less sour.
I promised myself, to treat myself,And visit a nearby tower ..........
And climbing to the top, Would throw myself off,
In an effort to, make clear to whoever,
What it's like when your shattered .......
Left standing in a lurch, In a church with people saying .....
My God, that's tough, she stood him up,
No point in us remaining .......
I may as well go home, As I did on my own,
Alone again, naturally.
To think that only yesterday, I was cheerful, bright and gay.
Looking forward to, and who wouldn’t do,
The role I was about to play.
But as if to knock me down, Reality came around,
And without so much as a mere touch, Cut me into little pieces.
Leaving me to doubt, all about God and His mercy,
Oh, if He really does exist, Why did He desert me?
And in my hour of need, I truly am, indeed,
Alone again, naturally.
It seems to me that there are more hearts,
Broken in the world that can’t be mended, Left unattended, what do we do?
What do we do?
Now looking back over the years, And whatever else that appears.
I remember I cried when my father died, Never wishing to hide the tears.
At sixty-five years old, My mother, God rest her soul,
Couldn’t understand why the only man, She had ever loved had been taken.
Leaving her to start, with a heart so badly broken,
Despite encouragement from me, No words were ever spoken.
And when she passed away, I cried and cried all day,
Alone again, naturally .....Alone again ................................. naturally.
I spent the last hour curled in the fetal position in the corner sucking my thumb and softly hitting my head against the wall.
Oh my god, NOTE TO SELF: Pick a different G*#damned CD next time!!!! I put in some Prince, I'm hoping that will help, but at this point, I might need professional intervention.
